My Own Robin Williams Thinking — And Staying Among The Living

Alcoholics and drug addicts are taught to share their experiences in hopes that their troubles may, in some small way somewhere, sometime,  help another.

I am a drug addict and alcoholic.

Like Robin Williams, I have the little voices in my head that tell me to do the exact opposite of the next right thing.

“There’s a voice that tells alcoholics we can drink,” Robin Williams used to say.  “It’s the same voice you hear if you go up to the top of a very large building and look over the side. There’s a little voice that goes, ‘Jump!’ ”

Me too.

But there is hope and there is great love and compassion and teaching and learning in the fellowship of Alcoholic Anonymous and other “Twelve Step Programs.”

Alcoholics and drug addicts need their fellow sufferers. In fact, many alcoholics and drug addicts will tell you that it is their fellow sufferers that keep them sober and keep them alive.

I love Robin Williams the actor, the comedian, the man in recovery. I hate Robin Williams the suicide statistic. I have compassion for him but not approval. We all know, and need to keep foremost, that we are all slaves to drugs and alcohol.  Once we admit we are addicted, we need long-term and daily help and care. Long-term sobriety does not guarantee more long-term sobriety. Going to Hazelton is not the same as starting again to do the Hazelton program.

Robin Williams: I love you. We all love you. Pray God the Good, the Best Good that can come from your suicide is to cause the next drug addict or alcoholic to stay in the program, to stay out of isolation and the darkness of depression, to constantly seek and get and live in help and recovery and sobriety.

Sanity is optional. Suicide is not.

There are no guarantees in life and we are on the clock.

The antidote to fear is faith.

John Francis Carey
Peace and Freedom

God, I offer myself to Thee-
To build with me
and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self,
that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties,
that victory over them may bear witness
to those I would help of Thy Power,
Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!
Thank you, God, Amen!

PS: At about the same moment as Robin Williams suicide (an event we would find out about hours later), a man stopped me and began talking about suicide. As this man talked I thought: “This is a God moment. Get this guy help.” I ended up taking him to the appropriate treatment and turned him over to some doctors. I probably would not mention it except for the fact that, in my head, as this man spoke of suicide, I clearly found the right words and actions and I had a strong sense that I needed to follow God’s plan for me — and drag him along. I had been well trained that “Your Life Does Not Belong To You.” Not anymore. But I need a lot of daily help to keep it that way!


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